Javabe Melika

melika yedafe hame in kararo kardam nemidonam che ama delam khast vase yedafe dige eltemas nakonam dige hichi nagam va bebinam chi mishe.
hala daram mibinam alan fesharamo gereftam didam 16.5 akhe kodom javon toye in seno sal fesharesh ine.
hala tak take javabaye msgeto midam:
migi bayad hamechiu az beyn bebaram onaro man nabayad bebaram toee ke migi az zendegim boro biron bayad inaro az beyn bebari.
melika vaghan to chera nemikhay ghabol koni ke man shak nadaram faghat az roye narahati az in ke man dir javab midam chon daram be baghiye migam daram ba to chat mikonam chon nemizari begam kasi pm nade majboram beheshon begam onam chek mikardam az vaghti to zehnam omad ke on khabo didam bekhoda nemidonam chera man be in pesar in heso daram faghato faghat hes mikonam on mitone toro az man begire sare hamine ke man in kararo mikardam va hich shaki nadaram mikhay bavaresh koni mikhay nakoni dige nemikham ghasamo ghoran biyaram ke harfamo bavar koni.
melika man hamechimo behet migam migam chon to vaghan aromam mikoni sedat ya axat ama bazi vaghta nashode bod to asabani bodi makhsosan vaghti baba karesh dorost nemishod ya harchizi ya asabani bodi bahat miharfidam migofti arom misham rohiyamo avaz mikoni shayad in harfat faghato faghat harf bode nemidonam ama na man hich vaghti nashode bod ke bekham az roye chizi aromet konam va bekham aramesh behet bedam chon hich vaghti nemigofti che hesi dari ke man heseto dark konam va bekham komaket konam.
nemidonam dar morede in harfet ke migi man toro be dostam tarjih midam chera nemikhay ghabol koni harfamo goftam khodam hamishe az harfaye tekrari badam miyad inam gofte bodam ama che fayde ke hich vaghti nemifahmi to che ghadar vasam azizi va arzesh dari.
melika baz dari miri sare masaele ghadimi man on moghe ke be in andaze doset nadashtam to on moghe faghat vase man ye dokhtari bodi ke bahash bodam va mikhastam kenaresh basham ta vaghti ke biyad yani behesh ghol bedam bahash mimonam va on dava ham vaghan az dastet narahat bodam vaghan narahat bodam kheyli on moghe mano shikondi ba on harfa man badesh fahmidam ke dorogh bode va khasti armaghano arom koni bazam migam man behet begam toro vase sargarmi mikham che hali behet dast mide han?
melika man bavar dashtam dost dashtaneto ama to fagaht mano ghade ye dost dost dashti nago bishtar bode chon hamon jor ke to bavar nemikoni man toro bishtar az dostam mikham in harfe toam bavar nemikonam chon hamishe gofti ke marda saro tah ye karbasan va migofti hamaton mese hamin nemigi khodavakili nemigi??
melika tarifaye man chi bod khodaee khodet bego joz in ke man hamash bi ahamiyat bodam nesbat be ona magar chand nafari ke samimiyan mese hamin dostat ke bahashon chat mikoni faghat telamo daran ama na gharar gozashtam na chizi ama in mano misozone ke harfato be hame migi joz mani ke migi doset daram va mikhasti ye zamani hamishe kenaresh bashi man hamishe az in narahat bodam ke migoftam chera onaro be man tarjih midi va hichi be man nemigi rastesh hasodim mishod be ona ke to bahashon in harfaro mizani ama man , darigh az yek kalame va vaghti ke migofti bekhoda az tajob nemidonestam chetori komaket konam ya dardo delato javab bedam.
akhe in dokhtar savar kardan yani chi khob mese in mimone ke man ba farshado mahdiye beram biron ya masalan beshinam toye ye taxi melika man gofte bodam behet hamishe hale baham bode momken bod az dastam dar biyaram ama harvaghti ke dokhtari pisham bod ya jaee bodim ke dokhtaraye mojarado ham sen bodan halghe manam dastam bod bavar nemikoni midonam chi kar konam dige.
ki akhe toro majbor karde bod mage chagho gozashtam zire gelot ke migi majbor kardam in che harfi dari mizani on moghe ke to ba on lahn migi beram vase hamishe beram manam khastam beram chon nemikham dige azab bekeshi in eshghe to hamishe ba mane man toye msgi ke dadam behet goftam ke axato arosako bardashtam midonam ke dorogh goftam ama khastam bebinam toam in karo mikoni faghato fagaht axol amaleto mikhastam bebinam na hich chize digee ( melika nemidonam key ino mikhoni ama age on moghe azam narahat shodi badet omad mazerat mikham azizam nemikhastam injori narahatet konam va in dorogho goftam kasiyam majboram nakard khodam goftam aghebatesham harchi mikhad bashe.
MELIKA midi hamechi tamom shod bekhoda faghat toye zahere batenan tamom nashode vase man axat hast arosaket hast eshghet to delam hast akhe mage ina tamom mishe khodaee mage tamom mishe golam hich vaght hata ye saniye ham tamom nemishe man behet shak nadaram bavar kon ke faghat be hame hamechiu migi joz mani ke migi nazdik taram beheto migi dosam dari man ba kam harfiyat va daron geraeet taghriban kenar omad deghat karde bashi dige nemigam chera kam harf mizani chera hichi nemigi chon ham hes mikonam to zehnet chi migzare ke albate hamash eshtebah bode tahala.
MELIKA midi atrafiyan pas malome kheyli behet migan ke dari eshtebah mikoni dige az in bebad eshtebah nist raft nemidonam vase hamishe raft ya na vase chand maho chand roz man hanoz sare harfam hastam ke yerozi harjaye donya bashi giret miyaramo mibinamet hata ye roz be akhare omramam bashe miyam ghol midam.
harfe khodeto mizanam azizam :
Age ba to bodan eshtebahe , to ghashang tarin eshtebah
Asheghetam azizam age in jodaee ke dare sar migire bazam narahatet kard az tahe delam azat mazerat mikham.
taabadmelika
10/8/88