Javabe Melika

melika yedafe hame in kararo kardam nemidonam che ama delam khast vase yedafe dige eltemas nakonam dige hichi nagam va bebinam chi mishe.
hala daram mibinam alan fesharamo gereftam didam 16.5 akhe kodom javon toye in seno sal fesharesh ine.
hala tak take javabaye msgeto midam:
migi bayad hamechiu az beyn bebaram onaro man nabayad bebaram toee ke migi az zendegim boro biron bayad inaro az beyn bebari.
melika vaghan to chera nemikhay ghabol koni ke man shak nadaram faghat az roye narahati az in ke man dir javab midam chon daram be baghiye migam daram ba to chat mikonam chon nemizari begam kasi pm nade majboram beheshon begam onam chek mikardam az vaghti to zehnam omad ke on khabo didam bekhoda nemidonam chera man be in pesar in heso daram faghato faghat hes mikonam on mitone toro az man begire sare hamine ke man in kararo mikardam va hich shaki nadaram mikhay bavaresh koni mikhay nakoni dige nemikham ghasamo ghoran biyaram ke harfamo bavar koni.
melika man hamechimo behet migam migam chon to vaghan aromam mikoni sedat ya axat ama bazi vaghta nashode bod to asabani bodi makhsosan vaghti baba karesh dorost nemishod ya harchizi ya asabani bodi bahat miharfidam migofti arom misham rohiyamo avaz mikoni shayad in harfat faghato faghat harf bode nemidonam ama na man hich vaghti nashode bod ke bekham az roye chizi aromet konam va bekham aramesh behet bedam chon hich vaghti nemigofti che hesi dari ke man heseto dark konam va bekham komaket konam.
nemidonam dar morede in harfet ke migi man toro be dostam tarjih midam chera nemikhay ghabol koni harfamo goftam khodam hamishe az harfaye tekrari badam miyad inam gofte bodam ama che fayde ke hich vaghti nemifahmi to che ghadar vasam azizi va arzesh dari.
melika baz dari miri sare masaele ghadimi man on moghe ke be in andaze doset nadashtam to on moghe faghat vase man ye dokhtari bodi ke bahash bodam va mikhastam kenaresh basham ta vaghti ke biyad yani behesh ghol bedam bahash mimonam va on dava ham vaghan az dastet narahat bodam vaghan narahat bodam kheyli on moghe mano shikondi ba on harfa man badesh fahmidam ke dorogh bode va khasti armaghano arom koni bazam migam man behet begam toro vase sargarmi mikham che hali behet dast mide han?
melika man bavar dashtam dost dashtaneto ama to fagaht mano ghade ye dost dost dashti nago bishtar bode chon hamon jor ke to bavar nemikoni man toro bishtar az dostam mikham in harfe toam bavar nemikonam chon hamishe gofti ke marda saro tah ye karbasan va migofti hamaton mese hamin nemigi khodavakili nemigi??
melika tarifaye man chi bod khodaee khodet bego joz in ke man hamash bi ahamiyat bodam nesbat be ona magar chand nafari ke samimiyan mese hamin dostat ke bahashon chat mikoni faghat telamo daran ama na gharar gozashtam na chizi ama in mano misozone ke harfato be hame migi joz mani ke migi doset daram va mikhasti ye zamani hamishe kenaresh bashi man hamishe az in narahat bodam ke migoftam chera onaro be man tarjih midi va hichi be man nemigi rastesh hasodim mishod be ona ke to bahashon in harfaro mizani ama man , darigh az yek kalame va vaghti ke migofti bekhoda az tajob nemidonestam chetori komaket konam ya dardo delato javab bedam.
akhe in dokhtar savar kardan yani chi khob mese in mimone ke man ba farshado mahdiye beram biron ya masalan beshinam toye ye taxi melika man gofte bodam behet hamishe hale baham bode momken bod az dastam dar biyaram ama harvaghti ke dokhtari pisham bod ya jaee bodim ke dokhtaraye mojarado ham sen bodan halghe manam dastam bod bavar nemikoni midonam chi kar konam dige.
ki akhe toro majbor karde bod mage chagho gozashtam zire gelot ke migi majbor kardam in che harfi dari mizani on moghe ke to ba on lahn migi beram vase hamishe beram manam khastam beram chon nemikham dige azab bekeshi in eshghe to hamishe ba mane man toye msgi ke dadam behet goftam ke axato arosako bardashtam midonam ke dorogh goftam ama khastam bebinam toam in karo mikoni faghato fagaht axol amaleto mikhastam bebinam na hich chize digee ( melika nemidonam key ino mikhoni ama age on moghe azam narahat shodi badet omad mazerat mikham azizam nemikhastam injori narahatet konam va in dorogho goftam kasiyam majboram nakard khodam goftam aghebatesham harchi mikhad bashe.
MELIKA midi hamechi tamom shod bekhoda faghat toye zahere batenan tamom nashode vase man axat hast arosaket hast eshghet to delam hast akhe mage ina tamom mishe khodaee mage tamom mishe golam hich vaght hata ye saniye ham tamom nemishe man behet shak nadaram bavar kon ke faghat be hame hamechiu migi joz mani ke migi nazdik taram beheto migi dosam dari man ba kam harfiyat va daron geraeet taghriban kenar omad deghat karde bashi dige nemigam chera kam harf mizani chera hichi nemigi chon ham hes mikonam to zehnet chi migzare ke albate hamash eshtebah bode tahala.
MELIKA midi atrafiyan pas malome kheyli behet migan ke dari eshtebah mikoni dige az in bebad eshtebah nist raft nemidonam vase hamishe raft ya na vase chand maho chand roz man hanoz sare harfam hastam ke yerozi harjaye donya bashi giret miyaramo mibinamet hata ye roz be akhare omramam bashe miyam ghol midam.
harfe khodeto mizanam azizam :
Age ba to bodan eshtebahe , to ghashang tarin eshtebah
Asheghetam azizam age in jodaee ke dare sar migire bazam narahatet kard az tahe delam azat mazerat mikham.
taabadmelika
10/8/88

MSG javabe melika vase jodaee

bade in ke goft beram ino vasam MSG karde:

Masalaan az zendegim rafti biron ?!Na , injorii nemibaran. Bayad khaterehaat , fekreet toye zehne man, harfaat toye goshe man , axsat toye pc , axset laye ketabam , kadohat az roye takhtam , gardanbandet az roye gardanam , shomarat az to ye mobilam, dost dashtanam hame inaro az beyn bebari baad beri !! Raftam faghat az to fb oo netlogoo webzzz nist !Fekram be yaghin tabdil shod,to hamishe be man shak dashti , az roye shak mididi ke un hast ya na ke man ba kie harf mizanam , toam khili oghat dir javab midadi , manam bayad chek mikardam ke bebinaam ba kodom az un dokhtara ke tarif mikoni vasam chat mikoni ?! Na hichvaght inkaro nakardam chon beheet etminan dashtam , hatta baad az didane un khabe kazayee ke chand vaghte mesle khore azaram mide ! Man behet aramesh midadam , mohamad tahala be in fekr kardu ke ye bar to ba harfat be man aramesh bedi ?! Tahalaa fekr kardi kee man dokhtaram ehsasataam jarihe dar Mishe ?! Dishaaab ba un film yadesh oftaadi ke dir bod !Mohamad man koor nistam karam nistam , age khili harfaro nemizanam manish in nist ke nemifahmam chi migzare ! To dostato be man tarjih dadi , har dalili kee biari man baz in harfo mizanaam ke arzeshe dostat az man bishtar bod , to kasi nabodi ke man beheesh tekeye konam , bishtar to be man tekie karde bodi !!Farshado mahdeye beham residan chon farshad poshte mahdeye bood hatta ba maneyee ke joloshon bodo hal shod , ama to 2 bar poshte mano khali kardi , mogheye iran bodamo mamanet goft be dardet nemikhore toam gofti bashe , melika sharmande nemishe ! Yekiaam parsal ke hazer nashoodi be be harfam gosh bedi oo un jori shod , toye hardota ba esrare man hame chi dorost shod , midooni chera ? Choon vagheaan dooset dashtamo too nadidi , to fekr mikardi doost dashtan be ebraz kardane na mohabat kardan ! Dooset dashtam ke telephoni jolo maman bahaaat harf mizadam oo ghat nakardam ! Dooset dashtamo montazeret bodam ke be pishnahade khiliaa Na goftam ! Mohamad key mikhasti bebini inaro ?! Hamishe az dokhtaraoo kasaye ke bahaash harf zadi tarif nakardioo man gosh kardam ?! Narahat shodam !!!?Shayaad bad gheleeghi kardam amaa hamash bekhatere in bod ke nemitobestam harfamo bayan konam oo to Fekr kardi ke chon chizi nemigam hagh ba toe ! Khodet hamishe migoofti ke mohem ineke deleet ba keye , man delam ba to bod ama chon az bagheye migoftam to dochare eshtebaah shoodi ke chizi beynemone , na hichii nabodeoo nist , to ke khodet idesho dari boro azash bepors!Mage khodet az hame dokhtara tarif nemikardi , mage nemigofti ba dostet raftin dokhtar savar kardin , hala to na , dostet , moheem inekee to ham savar bodi , chiziii goftam ?! Chooz inkee hamishe goosh dadam ! To chi ?! Ta man ye chiz goftam sarie jebhe gereftioo narahat shodi !!! Dige esrari nadaram be hich chiz , chon to ham haghe entekhaab dari , va un entekhaab mitone harkas bashe joz man , mesle hamon khaabi ke barat goftam !Toye javabe soaleet majboram kardi begam boro , batenan ..... !!!Hame chi tamom shod.Dige na milikaye hast na mohamadrezaye ke asheeegh ham bashan chon on eshgh tabdil shod be yee shaake hamishegiee 2 tarafe!Shayaaad atrafianaam khili chiza beheem goftam ama kenare to bodano dooost dashtam , be harfaat gosh dadano dost dashtaam , poor harfiatoo doost dashtam ,khili vaght bood say mikardaam faramosheshon konam , amaa nemishood!Man poor harf bodanoo shaad bodaneto pazirooftam ama to kam harf bodan oo daron gara bodanamo hich vaght ghabol nakardi !!!Age ba to bodan eshtebahe , to ghashang tarin eshtebahi

10/7/88

Marg ye bar Shivan ye bar

emshab bade in ke azash babate hamechi mazerat khahi kardam va harf mizadim va vase avalin bar ke khabe mano ke dide bod tarif mikard man ghasamo ina ke mikhad man beram az zendegish ya na onam goft nemidonamo ina ke tahe delesh na bod mishod hads zad ( albate shayad)
hamechi kheyli khob bod ta vaghti ke man harfe mohamad ali keshidam vasat ke shomaha kheyli khob ham digaro mishnasin bad haminjori harfa edame peyda kardo goft are mishnasim hamishe hes mikardam ke mohamad ali baese jodaeeye mano melika mishe hes mikardam mikhad ono azam begire harchi ke hasasiyate man bishtar mishod melika nazdik tar mishod begzarim man baz vasate harfash paridam melika ham ghati kard mese hamishe ke nemizari man beharfam va khodkhahamo in jor chiza va bad goft mikhay javabeto bedam dige nemikhamet az zendegim boro biron vase hamishe.
manam zadam be sime akhar ya bazam dost mishim ya nemishim dige az in 2 halat ke kharej nist va az harja ke baham ozv bodim pakesh kardam mikham bebinam akharesh chi mishe man ke vaghan az tahe delam dosesh daram bebinam onam be hamin andaze dosam dare ya na delesh mikhad ke dobare baham bashim ya na.
ama in yadam mimone ke age joda beshim az ham : 1-khodkhahiye man. 2-khodkhahiye man. 3-khodkhahiye man. 4-mohamad ali (m_a_ahmadi2001)
10/7/88